recurring dreams

I starting having this dream a few days after Rick died. Should probably call it a nightmare as that’s what it sounds like as I read back over this. Parts of Rick are scattered in the intersection and across the parking lot. An arm here, leg there…… I’m running from one place to the next picking him up. It’s not macabre, no blood,, more like parts from a Ken barbie doll. The roads are getting busy with people driving to work. By the time the dream ends panic is setting in, I’m afraid a car will run over his arm or leg before I can get all of him picked up. I discussed it with a dream analyst, she said it was likely representative of my fight with the police department. As time passes and related matters come to a close, I will get more of him picked up until I have all of him.

Because of You

Because of You

Nickleback

Hands on the mirror
Can’t get much clearer
Can’t make this all go away
Now that you’re bleeding
You stare at the ceiling
And watch as it all fades away

From what you do, because of you
You know I can’t be there
Each time that you call
I swore not to come
But I’m here after all
I know by the look that I see in your eye
I won’t stand around and I won’t watch you die
From what you do
(What you do, what you do, what’s because of you
What you do, what you do, what’s because of)

Now that you did this
You ask for forgiveness
Doctor could you be my priest
You say you’re mistaken
But look what you’ve taken
You laugh as you lie through your teeth

From what you do, because of you
You know I can’t be there
Each time that you call
I swore not to come
But I’m here after all
I know by the look that I see in your eye
I won’t stand around and I won’t watch you die
From what you do
(What you do, what you do, what’s because of you
What you do, what you do, what’s because of)
From what you do

Hands on the mirror
Can’t get much clearer
Can’t make this all go away
Now that you’re bleeding
You stare at the ceiling
And watch as it all fades away

From what you do, because of you
You know I can’t be there
Each time that you call
I swore not to come
But I’m here after all
I know by the look that I see in your eye
I won’t stand around and I won’t watch you die
From what you do
(What you do, what you do, what’s because of you)
What you do
(What you do, what you do, what’s because of)
Because of you

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one place I haven’t looked for you……..would I find you there…….